I do not regret calling Jessica to tell her about the doctor's findings, and to let her know that I would be returning to Chicago. I am sad that she decided to take it where she did. What I regret is talking to her in the early spring. She is not a person that I want to turn to for help with changing a light bulb let alone anything else. If I had known that David was right around the corner – I wouldn't have bothered because it's not worth it.
I have been genuinely moved and so touched by the responses I have gotten from so many people over the last few months. From Nadja's vet - Dr Hall – to Patty (who read our story and just reached out) and to all of the other individuals who shared their stories and felt compelled to say something - and who gave. My beautiful girl was returned to me with such a beautiful note included - and the folks at the pet cemetery did not have to do that. That sense of caring and compassion is a way of being that I personally embrace, That makes coping day to day so much easier. So maybe I don't have all of the suitcases I need, and maybe I'm getting a little nervous about the rent for this week. I have my dog back. Maybe I'll find a suitcase, or maybe someone will drop one by. Maybe I will have to go stay at a shelter for a little while, or maybe not. I still have my dog back. I will treasure and cherish that note - and treasure and cherish the very unselfish gift that those individuals gave to me no matter what else happens. |